Before I started this this fitness kick, I was well aware that self-control was the issue. Afterall the problem is 70% food and only 30% exercise. I was angry that even though I knew this it did not make it any easier to exercise any - self control that is.
I read a great book called "We have met the enemy - self control in an Age of Excess" by Daniel Akst. I enjoyed reading it, it was enlightening and yet I finished it and felt stronger for a little while, before I fell back into old ways.
On signing up to my program, I was angry that I had not been able to kick these few kilograms myself. Now, I am supposed to have support around me, family friends, trainers. Pressure that has been brought to bear by me telling everyone that I have set my goal. But at the end of the day you only have yourself don't you?
That is what I have felt today. I really had to use my will power to go swim laps. It would be easier if the lanes were open right after school drop off, but they are not. I had plenty of things I could have done instead of going but I didn't. It meant I missed lunch and went from laps to helping my daughter's class cook pancakes for Shrove Tuesday. My pancake partner was a qualified chef and he made some beautiful batter with the kids using Butter Milk and everything. I helped the kids pour them into the pan. I helped them flip them. I put the their lemon and sugar or maple syrup on them and served them to the kids. All without taking a bite - and there were plenty left over too. That's self control.
Now I find that although I have reached all of my Macro Nutrient Targets for the day, I have stayed up too late and I am hungry and it is going to take a lot more self control not to eat anything else before bed. A big drink of sparkling water and some vitamins [sigh]
Tomorrow is another day, a weigh in day in fact. The day I see my PT for an hour, the day I see if my first weeks great result can be followed up by another successful week. I think so.
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